Happy Birthday to You
If I was there I would sing. I would take pictures as you blew out the candles. I would give you a great big hug.
But I'm not there and I'm wondering if another year will go by or five years or ten years or a lifetime of missed birthdays.
So Happy Birthday, my dear. You're 15 years old today. I hope it's a the best birthday you've ever had. And may it be a wonderful year.
I miss you more than you can ever know.
Love,
MomLabels: empty nest, family, lots of tears
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Feeling listless
I have swept and cleaned the kitchen and watched an old episode of Lost. I made the bed and sorted out the garbage from the recyclables. And now I am wandering around my house wondering what to do next.
I could read, I could play a computer game or my DS, but nothing sounds appealing. I could go to yoga.
I have a job interview today at a place I'm really not hip on working at. But it's a job. I start graduate school....again....in a couple of weeks. So the job, in retail, would work out well because I could have a flexible schedule.
I don't know what my deal is. I just don't know.Labels: college, job hunting, random
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It is sooooo hot outside right now
The weather here is brutal. Those of you from Arizona or maybe Florida are probably rolling your eyes right now, but it is 106 degrees out right now in the shade. I am in a perpetual state of sweat. My shades are drawn, my a/c is on, fans are blowing and it is still HOT.
I am still looking for work. Sent out lots of resumes and met with a few technical staffing agencies. As My Baby B says, if you throw out enough lines you're bound to get a bite. I sure hope so.
But with the job search comes some thoughts....mainly about school and whether or not I should finish. I have the time. I can get my student loans flowing again and I can finally finish my Masters and move on to my PhD. Honestly, getting my PhD and teaching and writing and researching was all I ever wanted to do.
Don't get me wrong....I love web programming. It's fun and it's challenging, but I came into it as a hobby and made a career (and I use that word loosely....as you can't really call my work in that field a career) out of it. But it isn't something that I aspire to do for the rest of my life. I dream about school, I miss classes and tests and writing papers...and mostly I miss the goals. With each term completed I knew I was one step closer to getting there.
And then I stopped. Mostly, because I was maxing out my student loans to pay for school and my bills because CP wasn't paying me and I needed to make my ends meet. And I was working full-time and going to school and being a single mom of three. It got to be too much at the time and I wasn't giving school my full attention and my grades were not my best. And so I quit...at the time thinking I wouldn't ever go back.
But it calls....and I think I am answering.Labels: college, finding my way, job hunting
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