Yesterday I tried to talk to CP about what we can do. I suggested more ideas to meet in the middle. It went, as usual, badly. It degenerated into a "what's wrong with me and him" conversation. He told me he thinks I have low self-esteem and that is why I dress in "trashy" clothes and go out dancing on the weekends. He also said he thinks I'm not working on us - particularly because I don't do the dishes or cook as much as I used to. He reminded me that he pays for everything I do and I should do more around the house to earn my keep. He came close to threatening me that if I didn't do housework I'd be out on my ass.
I told him I think he has low self-esteem and rather than work on his own issues he rips into me to intensify my confusion and take the focus off his own insecurities. He got pissed. I knew he would.
Then he once again reminded me that our marriage is not the most important thing to him. God, Mormon church and his "Mormon" family (read he and the kids) is.
I told him if that's truly where his heart is at then we might as well quit working on staying together and start planning our divorce.
He stared at me.